will be away for a week, so Happy New Year 2010 as well!! (more travel posts coming up soon!)
Thursday, 24 December 2009
will be away for a week, so Happy New Year 2010 as well!! (more travel posts coming up soon!)
Tuesday, 22 December 2009
that evening we had a pre-Christmas dinner party back in my flat..
hope everyone had a good time :)
Saturday, 19 December 2009
some Christmas quotes to share..
Christmas is a season for kindling
the fire for hospitality in the hall, the
genial flame of charity in the heart.
Roy L Smith
Christmas is not a date. It is a state of mind
Mary Ellen Chase
Blessed is the season which engages the whole world in a conspiracy of love.
Hamilton Wright Mabi
The best of all gifts around any Christmas tree:
the presence of a happy family all wrapped up in each other.
Christmas waves a magic wand over this world, and behold, everything is softer and more beautiful.
Norman Vincent Peale
and my favourite, maybe cause its by Helen Keller..
The only blind person at Christmastime is he who has not Christmas in his heart.
Wednesday, 16 December 2009
more difficult to roll out of the warm covers
snuggling in bed more
being cooped up in my cozy room
eating more & more & more
getting lazier & less active
wearing thicker & thicker
increasing in size (no, its not the fluffy fur)
Tuesday, 15 December 2009
thursday night: christmas carol service at st benet's chaplaincy in qmul
my first taste of mulled wine & mince pies this year
funny talk and a good choir performance as well
(met a fellow Kuching girl here actually)
the speaker is white, speaks fluent chinese & leads a chinese congregation, and is heading to malaysia next week, he even mentioned nasi goreng and all in his sermon, which is why his analogy can relate to international students away from home..
had my first round of roast turkey & pudding this year
no offence, but xmas puddings (or fruit cakes) aren't really my cup of tea
saturday evening: lovely christmasy covent garden as usual, there are even reindeers to pat!!
a meet up with friends over a round of waffles & hot choc
(this time, i met a Penang guy)
had a round of games, listen to a choir and solo performance followed by a hearty meal (i had 2 rounds somemore, which is why there are 2 pics) and a sermon reminding us the true meaning of Christmas
a very good performance indeed!
everyone with happy faces opening their pressies..
Monday, 14 December 2009
i remember the days when i was once like that, it wasn't too long ago but it felt lost in time.. where i was willing to travel for bowling twice a Week, so active in societies & attended every single event, stayed up late at night playing futsball, monopoly, risk, charade till the wee hours of the morning, making random plans, going for picnics, badminton, dim sums etc.. i could even eat-out more than eat-in in a week (and of course, watch my bank account shrink)
has the life been drained out of me? somehow i felt the good ol' crowd has slowly dissipated, everyone else just disappears slowly out of my life, for several reasons, perhaps having new lives of their own, new friends, relationships, new cliques, new hobbies, or just studying more.. (cause i would hate the thought that they are no longer my friends.. )
"well, you are a finalist.. getting busier.." hmm
a euphemism of getting O.L.D. (and i've not even started working yet)
no point dwelling over a distant memory & living in the past that could never be re-created, its time to make start fresh & make new memories now i suppose, and soon after i would be reminising of this day sometime in the future. funny how time works!
Sunday, 13 December 2009
if i could undo the mistake i've made
if i could turn back time and make things right
if i could forgive and forget
if i could mend broken hearts and dry teary eyes
if i could be forgiven for my sins
if i could be accepted once again
if love & peace would fill the hearts of everyone once again
just believe, pray & have faith
and allow time for miracles to work
Saturday, 12 December 2009
Friday, 11 December 2009
Thursday, 10 December 2009
leona lewis has a great voice, but i think mariah carey's voice is unique and a class above, she mastered this song so well. oh well, leona is just starting out anyway so give her a break! i still support you leona!
and just for laughs, our good ol' favourite.. 'ken lee'..
For those who don't understand french they just to explained her that this was from a music competition in Bulgaria. After the video she said that "anybody who has the courage to sing in television deserves an applause"! nicely said, mariah!
once i got home & dress the wound, i noticed that i've Got Mail!
(memang import cheap labour..)
after hard work of cooking, here i was caught red-handed digging into the yummy pancakes & helping myself to topping it up with ice cream & more sugar & nuts!! and there you see, the true happiness in my face when i am about to dig into food! i had 3 pancakes on top of dinner and loads of ice cream after that..
simple things that make simple people simply happier.. korean pancake topped with ice cream, ben's cookies, japanese moci & my favourite chocolates.. and christmas fever hasnt even started! looking at my upcoming 8 christmas events even before Christmas Eve, i would be lucky if i gain only 2 kgs!! like i said, my favourite time of the year!
Tuesday, 8 December 2009
"but i don't wana stay on alone being the only malaysian.. "
"well thats YOUR fault for being so Anti-Social and not mix with Us!"
such sharp accusations! do you think i didn't try? that i enjoy staying in my room 24/7 and not talk to anyone else? that i want to isolate myself from the world??
the culture difference is inevitable. socially, i dont like to drink (alcohol), or smoke, i dont like music so loudddddd that i can't even hear myself, i dont like going out lateeeee and i dont see the point of making 'new friends' in clubs or drinking events, and giving hp numbers only to forget the whole thing the next day.
since going-for-a-drink/clubbing is the way of life, that means i won't be joining any social events aka Anti-Social, unfortunately. i am a go-eat-person, not a go-drink-person. i prefer deep/connecting-events, like going out for a meal and getting to know each other better over a cup of coffee. clubbing is more surface to me, no offence to club-lovers out there, but maybe i just cant appreciate it the way you all do. perhaps its because i went a few times in the past 4.5 years and never came home with a good experience.
don't get me wrong, i can hang out with my local buddies, we have a good laugh, go for a meal or a movie, hang out together after clinics teasing each other or pulling each other's leg. i genuinely enjoy all that.
in fact i was starting to warm up already, i thought i could make real non-malaysian friends and overcome the culture, the colour, the differences. expand my circle.
then the fateful backstabbing-Southend-incident took place. it was bad enough to see a 'friend' bring you down.. but what was worse was when your other 'friends' whom you thought u can rely on, watch you as u go down..
*shakes head* ..how sad, and i thought we were friends..
sorry, but i cant fake friendships as good as you do..)
and there is a Difference of being International (esp Sponsored) student who is at High Risk to Resit/Repeat a year... you have sooooo much at stake: your government back home who handpicked and invested in you and therefore paid every single penny... your citizens/tax-payers waiting for you services... your friends who are all working already except you... your family & relatives, especially your ailing parents who are growing older and older, forever so proud of having their child overseas..
the pressure to graduate is ten fold. day and night, family talks about graduate costumes, about air tickets, about future plans.. meanwhile what's on my mind now is..
What if I don't? What happens then?
"i dont wana fail and resit/repeat.. i dont stay any longer.. "
my local friends changed their perception after that, saying that they probably won't be able to do what i did that they probably won't be able to survive studying overseas.. thanks anyway for trying to understand towards the end..
don't judge before you see the whole picture,
(all this goes for everyone, really)
Monday, 7 December 2009
grilled chicken kebab lunch treat, not drenched in oil or sauces, yumsss (thanks for the treat!)
Reese chocolate with peanut butter from US! its so goooood!! there's the crunchy cup version and the softer creamy version, i gobbled up like 7 at least, quite embarrasing to just help myself when offered (yes la helen so tak-tau-malu) , somemore it came from so far.. well, good thing its from US, if i can get my hands on it so easily i would be in big trouble! thankss!
nice place, good food, great company :) thanksss for the friendly-homey-feel and the treatttt!
(this is definitely a luxury often taken for granted back in Malaysia..)
but here, after having such a good heavy meal and feeling so sleepy when its nearly midnight, it felt like a dream come true to hop into a warm cozy car and just actually appreciate beautiful london at night (photos of bus 73, Dorchester Hotel, Hilton & Tower Bridge.. but we passed by Buckingham Palace and drove along River Thames as well looking at London Eye etc etc)
thankssss for the car ride home, especially to be dropped off at my own doorstep! really really appreciate it! (at midnight, trains in london are closed so you have to take buses which could take hourssss because no direct buses so need to change, then its cold and rainyyy and wettt and dodgyyyy to walk home alone with smelly drunkards around cursing at you..)
felt like this weekend makan too much budi (debts) already, having treat after treat after treat.. such a greedy piggy! :S so refreshing to be able to smile and be plain happy again after the months of study-exams-results-drama..
:) smile while i can..
for tomorrow is another early start with mr sarcastic :S
Saturday, 5 December 2009
thank you for all the well wishes and the prayers
Friday, 4 December 2009
"helen, do u normally freak out like this before exam results come out?" d asked
"so it's normal.."
"er.. no.. this time i Heard people Did fail.. so this confirms that i have the Right to freak out.."
"but its a rumour.."
our ortho tutor (who Marked our Orthodontic Paper III for finals ) overheard and said "Yes i heard that people fail too.."
we were all stunned and looked at her..
"..heard from other students..?"
we looked at each other in silence..
"you heard that from the orthodontic department? ..regarding ortho paper III ?" i was trying to pinpoint which paper as the 30% failure was Prosthodontics Paper I..
random thoughts going through my mind.. should i bring it home and reveal it in the comforts of my consoling bed with table side tissues.. or should i reveal it first and head straight to sainsbury for a tub of ben & jerry's choc chip cookie dough or haagen-dazs' cookies & cream. yes, it is a tough decision to make, especially deciding which ice cream it would be.
It is foolish to fear what you cannot avoid
It is hard to fail, but it is worse never to have tried to succeed
The greatest mistake you can make in life is to continually be afraid you will make one
Our greatest glory consist not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall
What would life be if we had no courage to attempt anything?
Vincent van Gogh
Life is either a daring adventure or nothing
Thursday, 3 December 2009
each season brings a different mood, a different feeling... and we have different events/outings and wear different attires, making life so varied and fun! (and the wardrobe, so full!)
its gonna be my last winter here (if everything goes according to plan i.e. i can graduate next year) and as much as i hate the cold (i really Do!!) it is secretly one of my favourite seasons..
..the christmas atmosphere with the new year spirit
especially for christmas gifts
mince pies, mulled wine and crackers
and exchange presents
with a hot cup of choco and a good book
i think winter is a very romantic season.. call me a winter-sonata-junkie, but i think its really sweet to have someone to cuddle-me-tight when its subzero degrees outside, to throw snow balls at, to enjoy the christmas lights on the streets with, to christmas-present-shop for..
which explains why winter always make me rather nostalgic with sweet memories, leaving me all warm and fuzzy inside..
that makes me wonder.. isnt christmas a time to bury the hatchet, a time for forgiveness, a time to make amends, a time for new beginnings?
sometimes i feel like revisiting the past, its afterall just a click away, a call, a message, a few doors down the road, just to say 'hi.. long time no see, its that time of the year again, do u remember the times we used to..'
perhaps to say what i really think or how i really feel over all those lost moments of yesteryears.. perhaps to apologize or to forgive.. perhaps to clear up the air before i leave this foreign land which i have made my home..
it would never be the same again..
but i know that its the last thing i would do.. only because i shouldnt.. or i couldnt.. or someone else would kill me if i do.. or its not worth it.. or its too painful.. or i am only asking for trouble.. or i know its better if i dont.. or there's no point anymore cause its one sided afterall..
shall be buried deep under the snow of the winters from the past..
yes. this time around, it would be different. i would be asking for too much hoping for it to be as memorable (or even more memorable) than the many christmases of the past. but at least i know, it would still be a good one..
which means i can blog like i normally do now (which is NoW) while the other 2 girls at the side of my blog are talking randomly and being rather noisy (oops..), bobbing their heads about..