Tuesday, 31 March 2009
"Cavitron tip (electronic device to scale/clean teeth) " she said.
"We ran out.. someone just took the last one.." the man replied.
"Oh? I need one too.." i said, and the girl and i both sighed.
"Well, I'll just take the scaling kit (manual device to scale/clean teeth) " the girl continued.
"Same here," i chipped in.
"There's only One!" the man said and he looked at both of us to which the girl said "Only one?"
"Well, she's here first, she can have it," i said, and the girl took the last scaling kit and walked off. i just stood there looking at him, not really sure want to ask for next.
"Wait, i think there's more kits at the back!" the man suddenly said and disappeared to the back room and reappeared with a stack full of at least 10 scaling kits and handed one to me.
Phew, better than nothing! I thanked him and was about to leave when he stopped me.
"Wait, there is one last Cavitron tip!" he said, and he went to the back again to magically reappear with a Cavitron tip and handed it over to me. "There is one more left but I didn't want to give it to her," he said, smiling.
I was surprised and thanked him again, grinning from ear to ear. How nice of him! Later on i could see more and more colleagues complaining that there are no Cavitron tips, especially my clinical partner who looked desperate for one and he asked if he could have mine..
*ponder ponder.. the last precious Cavitron tip..* i knew i would need it but i think he needs it more so i let him have mine and i used the manual scaling kit instead. in the end the last Cavitron tip didn't work anyway as it was the wrong type and he had to resort to his manual scaling kit as well.
i might have a long rotten day in clinics, but a simple kind gesture like this was enough to make me smile for the rest of the day. thank you mr sterile-instrument-dispenser, you make my day :) i will make it a point to remember your name tomorrow.
Monday, 30 March 2009
After all, it doesn't make sense:-
Train from Bristol to Bath with Young Persons Railcard: £3.90 return taking 11 minutes per way.
Cycle from Bristol to Bath: £12 for a whole day ride with £50 deposit, taking up to 2.5hours per way (with our pace.. but its normally 1.5hours i suppose)
"Hey, its the Journey that counts, right?" well, i had to agree.. and that was one decision that i wish i have given much more thought to.. but now that i am home in one piece, here's how the story goes..
We took the Bristol and Bath Railway Path which is route 4 all along the way, it's clear and easy to follow. It says in the site that its a 13miles journey (not too bad huh, i did 26miles for London Bikeathon 2007 within like 4 hours or so.. very slow i know coz i fell and injured myself badly but that's another story..) its NOT true cause after looking at the signboards along the way showing:
=legs MUST MUST be able to stretch to full length while cycling, even if it means your feet won't touch the ground when u brake. i didn't know this during the first 1.5hours or so and i was practically dying as my legs were so so soreeeee.. only when i changed the seat height then i realized the difference of being able to cycle with full-leg-stretched! unfortunately, i was unable to brake properly cause my feet cant reach the ground.
=you gotta learn to use the gear, high for fast/downhills, slow for uphills or whichever way that suits u. it really helps!
=distraction. i was focusing on the miserable hilly paths and watching my friends race ahead. no fun. only when i had my music on with my favourite playlist that i can put my mind off cycling!
=be prepared for the UK weather. it was sunny like 3 times, rained another 3 times and hailstones 3 times throughout our journey! and what's worse, its cold, dark and very windy!!! as if the hills isn't bad enough to add to the resistance, the strong wind blowing against us has to contribute..
breeze blowing in your face
+changing to high gear and paddling even harder when going downhill to double the momentum and standing up while allowing momentum+gravity to do their wonders.. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!! such an exhilarating feeling!
+superb view of the outskirts, farms, fields, hills..
+cycling along the train tracks, watching them go choo choo.. won't race ya!
+over and under bridges
+along peaceful neighbourhoods and housing areas
+trying to overtake a herd of cows in a farm (my favourite part, only because they were the only living creatures i could overtake..*gasp* )
+even racing with a little boy! (picture above) he was damn energetic!
however, unlike going there with 2 lunchbreaks +3 5mins-breaks, i only stopped ONCE, after an hour of cycling to rest & enjoy the view while a train choochoos past. i finished the next 1.5hours straight without stopping. oddly enough it was the same time getting there, perhaps i was alot slower this time since my whole body ached, especially my butt.
the best part of going back is the remaining 1hour. my face practically brightened when i saw the same same tunnel that was the Point of No Return, where i decided to continue the journey and not give up.. i knew i was near home and i was cycling with new-found energy and such high motivation! and i realized why the 1st part of the journey was horrible that i nearly gave up, it was UPhill all the way.. so this final part was a breezeeee as i didn't even need to pedal all the way!! and the sun was setting in Bristol so i was sort of cycling downhill towards the sunset in the cold weather.. best feeling ever.
thanks to peilian who cooked the dinner, and thanks to beetee for sponsoring breakfast+sandwiches+dinner & a roof over our heads.
thanks to ashie fatiha yinhui and kasya for the delicious meal, and thanks to everyone else for the company as well. funny to be back at home in london where life returns to normal when just yesterday i was struggling on a bicycle for 5 hours between 2 cities under the rain and hailstones..
now i can say "Yes, i cycled from Bristol to Bath and back under the sun, rain, wind and hailstones for 5 hours.. that's 32 miles.." but there's one thing for sure (also just like climbing Mt K)...
but perhaps next time, Ben & Jerry's cookies & cream instead?
Sunday, 29 March 2009
Saturday, 28 March 2009
+i doublebooked patients next week (meaning i booked in patients when i am not suppose to, i am suppose to help nurse) not one, not two, but 3 whole sessions. i feel worried of how the tutors are going to scold me, i feel bad towards my partner who wouldn't get his fair share of help from me since he hardly doublebooked into my sessions (sometimes he's just doesnt come in, but at least he doesnt occupy dental chairs or steal tutor's precious time) and i feel horrible for having to cancel 3 patients who have swapped shift or taken the day off to come in. the email just went about that it is unacceptable to doublebook that patients could even be sent home without being seen. of coz, dental students get into trouble as well.
+monday 9.30am: patient 1 just needs a review. i've been calling her whole day but i can't get through to her. i guess if by sunday i cant get her, i'll just have to take the risk. i can imagine tutor 1 being not-too-happy.
+monday 11.00am: patient 2 is the only patient not double booked. however i am suppose to do a piezograph technique which noone in my group has done and even tutor 1 says she doesn't know it. (more dental jargons to come). apparently i need to clear his lower baseplate of wax, check if it fits, mold with viscogel and get patient to talk & swallow, send to the lab and cast it up (thats 40mins to set); once that's done, check if the upper baseplate fits, get the upper and lower to right in angle, plane and they sit on each other, mark midlines & canine lines, measure face height and freeway space, get occlusal bite registration, get facebow jaw registration, make a replica of present dentures (also 40mins to set) and take the tooth shade. soooo many things to do within 1.5hours. and how can i expect my nurse to be there to help me when i wont be there to help him all week? *headache* making dentures is easy. making dentures that fits a totally toothless patient, not easy.
+any extra free time this week needs to be spent in the lab (that's like 9-5pm ) setting teeth for the edentulous (completely no teeth) patient 2. i'll be lucky if it can be done before easter.
+monday 3.30pm: patient 3, another review, but tutor2 was upset at how i have poor patient attendance and he was satisfied when i explain i would doublebook to make up lost sessions, so i think i can escape.
+tuesday 2.00pm: patient 4, yet another review and tutor3 isn't too strict. but this time my partner needs my help the whole 3hours and he asked me i could reschedule. besides, there is a high risk of no dental chair. i haven't reviewed this patient for a year (suppose to be seen witin 4-6weeks!) because he can't make it alllll the time but for this particular day he managed to swap shifts to come. he can't unswap it now. if i dont see him, he risks getting discharged from the hospital. how could i tell him the session that his session is cancelled?
+thursday 1.30pm: oral surgery presentation. well, if i am doing it with yinhui, i dont mind, but she's not around and i am afraid to face any questions alone from tutors and peers post-presentation.
+friday 9.15am: paediatrics case presentation. another headache since there's some details i need to present which i don't know, so i got the patient 30mins in earlier so i can quickly sneakpeak into his mouth for some info before presenting him in front of not 1 but 2 tutors. please dont fail me.
+paediatrics case report 1 from the above presentation due. 600-1000words.
+paediatrics case report 2 about fissure sealant also due. 600words & a table.
+appointment with occupation health delayed due to extra lectures. need to get that form signed and sent to the elective tutor for form. which reminds me, essay for electives due right after easter break. 600words. i hate paper work.
+easter trip in exactly 1.5 weeks, but airtickets have not arrived. can't risk my phonebill calling them up for it, can it? or risk the whole trip?
+need to change £ to €. is £1000 enough for 11days?
+oh yes, borrow library book so i know where to travel..
haih.. so many things to juggle in 5 working days that its bugging me day and night in addition with my money/diet problems. should i regret leaving some stuff to the last minute that they all stack up so high suddenly, burying me under? i cant wait for next friday evening, that means at least 95% of the above burden should be off my shoulder. it must be.
other university courses might be tough, studying mountain-high-stacks of books or doing 10k-words assignments every few months, but i feel, although our coursework isnt as heavy, juggling with real patients who have their own problems and being responsible for not only their teeth but the whole oral health of patient, and struggling to meet requirements while doing that, isn't another easier. no way.
ok, now that i let it out, time to enjoy the weekend. will get back to this stack of mess on sunday night.. i think.
Friday, 27 March 2009
it was only when i was passing through the hospital i overheard screamings of "We Passed!!" "We are doctors now!" "Noone can take that away from us!" "WOw!"
how jealous.. and i noticed that i wasn't the only one, other onlookers like overworked construction workers and hospitalized patients on wheelchairs were also watching them as they screamed "Today is the HAPPIEST day of my life!!" in the hospital.
don't mean to be a wet blanket but perhaps celebrate it somewhere else? sounds like i am a sore loser, huh?
on a lighter note, ConGratuLations, Fresh New Doctors!! time flies, doesn't it? funny how i could still remember childish memories of college/1st/2nd years like it wasnt too long ago.. *giggles*
wonder how it feels?
15months to go, Gambate to my batch! i hope to see everyone (and myself!!) at the finishing line! *fingers crossed*
i thought it's a spam/junkmail, like "Congrats You are a Winner but please submit £10 to claim" etc.. but i've never gotten a junkmail from lastminute.com before..
then there was this voucher..
is this for real??? yippeeeee!! but, from who? there was no name anywhere, so whoever it is, please let me know so i can thank you personally, what a great cheer-up in the midst of
Thursday, 26 March 2009
(BMI healthy weight range is 18.5 to 24.9)
Height: 5ft 9in
Weight: 8st 13lb
BMI: 18.5 - cutting healthy
Height: 5ft 6in
Weight: 6st 8lb
BMI: 15.3 - underweight
Height: 5ft 8in
Weight: 8st 4lb
BMI: 17.9 - underweight
Jordan (Katie Price)
Height: 5ft 5in
Weight: 7st 3lb
BMI: 17 - underweight
Height: 5ft 6in
BMI: 18 - underweight
Height: 5ft 1in
Weight: 6st 4lb
BMI: 17 - underweight
Height: 5ft 6in
Weight: 9st 9lb
BMI: 23.1 - healthy
Height: 5ft 7in
BMI: 15.3 - underweight
Height: 5ft 6in
Weight: 7st 9lb
BMI: 17.8 - underweight
Height: 5ft 2in
Weight: 6st 11b
BMI: 17.4 - underweight
Height: 5ft 6in
Weight: 8st 6lb
BMI: 20 - healthy
Height: 5ft 9in
Weight: 11st 4lb
BMI 23.2 - healthy
Height: 5ft 10in
Weight: 11st 4lb
BMI 23 - healthy
I doubted these figures because... Angelina Jolie is 15.3 with all those curves, the same BMI as skinny Vic Beck?? i had to re-google Angelina's BMI, and found another list at dietdetective.com on post-pregnancy weightloss.
Lost: 30 pounds in 8 months
BMI: At 5’6” and 109 pounds, her BMI is 17.6 (UNDERWEIGHT)
Lost: 39 pounds in 18 months
BMI: At 5’8” and 96 pounds, her BMI is 14.6 (HOLY-CRAP UNDERWEIGHT)
Lost: 25 pounds in 3 months
BMI: At 5’9” and 125 pounds, her BMI is 18.5 (NORMAL)
Lost: almost 30 pounds in 3 weeks (YIKES!)
BMI: At around 5’4” and 115 pounds, her BMI is 19.7 (NORMAL)
*Could be off by an inch or so—but she’s around Cheryl Burke’s height.
Lost: 45 pounds in 5 months
BMI: At 5’9” and 130 pounds, her BMI is 19.2 (NORMAL)
Lost: 30 pounds in 4 months
BMI: At 5’5” and 115 pounds, her BMI is 19.1 (NORMAL)
Lost: 29 pounds in 6 months
BMI: At 5’5” and 118 pounds, her BMI is 19.6 (NORMAL)
Lost: 25 pounds in 13 months
BMI: At 5’9” and 120 pounds, her BMI is 17.7 (UNDERWEIGHT)
Lost: 26 pounds in 18 months
BMI: At 5’2” and 104 pounds, her BMI is 19 (NORMAL)
Lost: 30 pounds in 15 months
BMI: At 5’6” and 115 pounds, her BMI is 18.6 (NORMAL)
i guess, i am hugely disappointed cause all this while i was thinking that curves/proportionate-body is more important than bmi/weight, only to discover that my top3-favourite-body-idols are actually underweight.. people would call me crazy if i dare say i want a bmi18 when they are actually ogling celebs of bmi 14-17 themselves!! they don't looks sickly thin though, so being very thin doesn't mean u loose ur curves after all, or wait, did they go under the blade? perhaps different people have different body shapes, full stop.
haih, i am confused now...
its odd to hear words 'count & cut calories, diet, loss weight, exercise etc' from everyone's mouth other than my own when all this while i was the only one preaching these. i could see how it got everyone else depressed like how i was depressed in the past. i am quite numb to it now, although i feel guilty for robbing ppl's happiness in a way, now making them think they are fat. "sell if offfff!!!" someone told me. soon i can create a helen's-digital-weighing-scale-hate-club.
even underweight/non-dieters also affected with all the dieting talk, but isn't that better than the other way round? all along i am surrounded by underweight/non-dietings eating everything in front of me! more depressing, k?? but i didn't mean to spread the diet-disease and recruit ppl to my depressing-dieting-world.. *oops* well, thankfully i am not in the deepest end of that world now, although not fully out of it..
only consolation is someone who used 3 machines said mine shown the heaviest cause X was 55 on 1 machine, 56 on another but 57.7 kgs on mine. perhaps my machine was being cruel to be kind? whatever it is, life shouldn't rely on 3 digits, but look who's talking? (looking back on What determines your day?) ..
Wednesday, 25 March 2009
to be the most talented
not to be the most reserved
or to have the prettiest heart
perhaps everyone can gasp and stand in awe to see a pretty or a talented girl but only a tiny few would catch a glimpse of a pretty heart.. but does it feel the same to have 10 guys telling u that u have a beautiful face, compared to 1 guy who says u have a beautiful Heart?
Tuesday, 24 March 2009
why oh why didn't i make my bed this morning, then only the top layer aka. duvet would be wet and covered with glass.. now everything on my bed like my duvet, bedsheets and my pillows, each are damp and have bits and pieces of glass..
what's more all i wanted before the mishap was to close the curtains to have a crucial 30minutes nap before the next 3hours-lectures-marathon in the afternoon.. now sleeping on my bed is like walking in a minefield..
after cleaning the mess and stripping my bedsheets, 2 duvets and 5 pillows (yes i like lots of cushioning, just not in my tummy) i had only 15mins left to nap and it will be gone if i start putting new sheets on now! sungguh tak puas hati! i know i will doze off in lectures if i don't get my power nap now!!
typical lecture symptoms.
Monday, 23 March 2009
need to invest more money into fruits & veges instead.
on a lighter note: countdown 16 more days for my parents to visit for easter, then i can run away from the stresses of money/diet/clinics/bored&lonely for a while and get to travel/eat/be-loved by mummy & daddy! best combo ever. mummy daddy, faster come! :(
unfortunately weekends after weekends after weekends of binging ever since my food-marathon in early january (not to forget my trips to norway and turkey in december) ...all the way till now, has resulted in a turn for the worst no matter how i try to ignore it, hiding my weighing scale on the highest cupboard or in the furthest corner under the bed. its like the return of a nightmare.
i would say i was happy for the past few months eating n eating.. but after tonight's chicken rice, i was slapped hard again. i know what i should do, the same same advises of 'more fruits and veges, control portion, don take sugary stuff, exercise 3x a week, more active, wholemeal, low fat, no carbs, skimmed, more protein, count calories, keep a food diary, find a dietbuddy, no food after 8pm, dont omit but switch to healthier alternative, treat urself during weekends, eat many small meals not 3 big meals, dont starve urself, buy colourful variety, dont give in to cravings, dont be an emotional eater, try pilates yoga aerobics dancing jogging bla bla bla bla bla'.. i can memorize them all after reading 1001 websites on losing weight, and they say the same same things. no offence, friends, i appreciate the advices, but i know how i (aka. my body) work, and all these? not really working because they don't tackle the root of my problem.
i know what my problem is. motivation. and then ppl start asking 'WHY do u want to lose weight?' perhaps its easier if u have a boy to impress or a bikini to show off.
so the question now is, should i compromise happiness to be thin? that would mean no more trying new foodie places? happy to eat or happy to be thin.. that is the question..
Sunday, 22 March 2009
my fren, ashie, told me she's going for a picnic with her friends at 1pm at Regent's Park, and she asked me along coz she knows how restless i am especially on sunny days.. so impulsively i decided to
kinda forgotten the time and only left for the next picnic at 4ishpm... although i was already at 1 corner of Hyde Park while the 2nd picnic was at the other corner, they decided to leave since its cold (brrrr.. temperature just dips suddenly once its evening..) Sorry guys, didnt mean to ffk you all, just goes to show i cant be greedy and attend all picnics!
white+brown chocolate chips cookies . chocolate kek batik . choc sponge cake (that has choc icing!) . vanilla cup cake . carrot cup cake . ABC ice kacang . a bite of donut from the sample stand at Krispy Kreme . (did i mention that i had oreo ice cream milkshake and 3 tubs of frozen yoghurt on friday night?)
Saturday, 21 March 2009
7pm. we were discussing whether we should go out for dinner and where to go.
our choices were narrowed by :
=> nothing-else-but-briyani choices of whitechapel
=> halal-only-or-seafood restrictions of ashie
=> my new it's-friday-so-no-meat curfew
we were down to practically => nothing, and back to square 1 of whether we should even go out to begin with.
8pm: we decided to go out. we walked to Rosa, Bricklane. It was full, so were the Shampan and Rootmaster which were nearby. Then we were on the to-go-or-not debates at Subway, Baraka, Spice Bar, Giraffe, Canteen, GBK, Wagamama etc and other places at Spitalfields.
9pm and still aimless
9.30pm finally we settled at Nandos. we were more lazy and frustrated than hungry actually. if we had just "Let's Go Nando's!" at 7pm, we would have eaten by 7.30pm (since it's just 10 mins away!) , not starting the meal at 9.30pm after walking half of whitechapel and bricklane.
the underweight ashie who For the First Time CAN eat chicken while I CAN'T! she's having chicken burger with fries.. she's happy to tell me in the face 'oh sorry cant share the chicken set with you..' savour it while u can, ash!
i settled with veggie burger (what else, no seafood =p) with rice and my favourite, bottomless frozen yoghurt. i had 3 big tubs in total. tastes like banana ice cream, and i love ice creams.
-for a note, Semangat Malaysia! only in whitechapel can you see a malay-chinese-indian combo walking aimlessly-
thanks again menaka for the scam to get us out of our warm rooms and make us walk 1.5hours in the cold for Nandinos menu. of coz she insisted that she helped us lose weight b4 we even eat. i guess that could be the only way u get me to exercise.. *grumbles*
Friday, 20 March 2009
my head were filled with dreams, lots of them, and i quickly scribbled them down knowing how memories of dreams disappear like perfume evaporating into thin air under the rays of the morning sun, leaving behind the scent of bewilderment.
just before i call it a night tonight, i saw the scribbled paper on the bedside table..
+being matchmaked by watching an orchestra with another university student, who apparently was as surprised as i am. i even remember watching down at the orchestra from a high balcony on the side, those few sofa seats that only the rich & famous could afford.
+eating at a kopitiam in malaysian with my friends when a black out occured so the fan stopped working and we were complaining how hot it was (it was day time, so no worries of the lights) then a guy came in to buy those snacks or drinks by the counter and my friends gushed about how leng chai he was. the next thing i did was to get up and
+saw a wall of my house crack and about to crumble, and my family, neighbours and relatives quickly rushed in to grab whatever they could. i still wonder what was the one thing that i grab out of my house.
+waking up in my room to discover that my house was perfectly fine and it was a nightmare. another of those wake-up-from-a-dream-into-another-dream.
+a nurse taught me how to do stitches on some dummy. then it moved to an A&E scenario in a hospital room where i was left to save someone with that nurse. i still cant recall how i managed the situation, but i don't remember being panicky or lost.
the thing about dreams is, they kinda linked what happened during the day and create their own plot that u'll never think of. In real life, a friend invited me to an orchestra; i watched a series with a scene where the bf/gf were watching a play from the balcony seats; and i crossed path with this other university student... and TaDa! the rojak end-resulted in me and this guy watching an orchestra from the balcony together in dreamland.
i have yet to figure out how the rest of my dreams were conjured up, what more why i could dream that way.
sometimes i could just walk pass a certain person whom i did not communicate with and have no recollection of her/him after that but i could dream of this person later that night in funny scenarios! weird.. and i always complain how i cant remember stuff that i read and memorize for hours.. i think all my info is in my brain but just needs to be extracted in my sleep, not in the exam hall.
alas.. what adventures will i have tonite? and don't ask me to wash my feet, i already did and i still dream anyways.
and thanks for the treat :)
verdict? ok lar.. not as pretty as Halaliano's, i didnt have the milkshakes so i wont know if its can be compared to Tinseltown's, but my friends said it was nice. and sitting in makes everything £0.50 more expensive, so just take-away next time?
One more thing, students get 10% off.
perhaps this has to be the last sinful thing i take.. the weighing scale doesn't seem friendly to my not-dieting lifestyle for the past few months.. *grumbles*
Wednesday, 18 March 2009
yet to find the real cause of there 6 little cuts, my main suspect is somewhere in my handbag which i always rummage for my mobile or my keys, or among my notes, there's some sore crooked staple that is sticking out ready to give me my 7th cut within a week. i will find you, stupid mini-cutter, its not fun washing my hands & doing the dishes with the cuts, no matter how small or how many.
***3 hours later***
oh great, found my 7th cut on the same finger as my 3rd.
tomoro is another longgg day! clinics maybe tiring, but sitting 9-5 everyday trying to digest even 10% of the lectures with only an hour to breathe in between & swallow ur lunch is not really my idea of time-out-from-clinics, which resulted in me just dazing off and wondering where these tiny cuts on my hands come from.. (with a possibility that i inflicted it on myself to stay awake in lectures?! *gosh!* and its only day 2 out of 10!!)